The Bowling Poets
matt " tarbaby" henegar
Born 26SEP75
Died 31OCT20
Matt"TARBABY"Henegar has communicated with several
friendly alien races and
now lives like a king in scenic jonesboro arkansas with
many different people who
collectively call themselves the"NEO ROMANTICIST
MOVEMENT"(in other words,
freaks) he hates the town with a passion and will blow it
up if forced to live there much
longer....... so help this poor soul
THANKS, GOODNIGHT, AND PLEASE,... DON'T FORGET TO TIP YOUR
WAITRESS (lord knows i'm too broke too)
The Bowling Poets
COLD SWEAT & COFFEE
LOVE ISN'T HERE
STANDING ON A CURB
AT 2 A.M.
LEANING ON A LAMPPOST
OF A DIRT ENCRUSTED CORNER
IN A SCABBED OVER
CITY, THAT REEKS OF $#!^ SWEAT & SEX
CHEAP BOOZE, CHEAP WHORES,
and that man on the corner playin' sax
life keeps throwin' funny curves
but i keep on swingin'
and strikin' out
strugglin'...
and failin'...
livin's certainly better than dyin'
but it's a cold comfort
in an even colder world
i'm lookin for the next big thing
but hope grows
and EXPLODES
into this huge optimistic kick
that grinds my hesd into the ground
like the cigarrette that i can't smoke
without collapsing into a fit
of monotonous hacking
then hopefully i'll be reborn
and live in a world of peace, hope, and
harmony
but soon i'll
realize...
love isn't here
" tarbaby"
i waste away
looking at myself
a distorted mirror
showing me for who i am
a wretched
a lying
a loathing
creature for my only passion is that
of nonassimilation
of fantasy
of escape
i've lied to myself
to my friends
to those i love
yet all that comes to me id dread
a sense of outside looking in
misfit
abnormal
IS THAT WHO I AM CURSED TO BE?!
don't you
think
do you think i don't feel the stares
don't you think i feel the disgust
i've tried to find myself
but i've only found confusion
i
feel drained
sick
my only damnation is myself
my only salvation is myself
i am the one to save myself
by getting my head
out of
the
sand
matt"tarbaby"henegar
17OCT96
The Bowling Poets
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